Fragrances and Memories

Smells, just like certain songs, can always transport me to somewhere in my past. They trigger memories and feelings. When I smell a certain scent.. I can't even explain what it is, I'm reminded of a time when I sat at home for 13 hours waiting on this guy to come see me. Needless to say, he never came... not that day, or the next day. He eventually did come by, but by then I was well on my way to being over him. Even now, I'm still on my way... I haven't truly gotten there as yet, but I digress.

In allowing myself to wallow in the memories with the smells and songs... I wonder.. is this it for me? I won't say I am totally unhappy, but I am unsatisfied. TOTALLY. With where am I now and what my expectations are for myself and for my family. I can't believe that I am still having certain fights with myself and with my husband. Will this ever end? It feels like torture. So much time has passed and yet we're still here in the very same position. The only consolation is that sadly with the economy the way it is, we are not alone. Yet, there is no comfort in that.